Working-Healer Series: You Have the Right to Make a Living Using the Skills You Have: Even the Magical Ones
All my life. I have been told, directly or indirectly, that I did not have the right to sustain my own existence. That making a living was some sort of privilege I had to earn, and the only way to earn it was by being obedient.
Luckily for me, I am not capable of obedience for its own sake. At least not for any extended period of time. It's just not sustainable.
You see, when I am inauthentically obedient, my supernova soul begins to go dormant, photon-by-photon, in my human perception and embodied experience. I refer to this as soul-murder, and every time I have succumbed to obedience through ignorance or fear, I have paid a price that cannot be spoken. Many of these incidences were related to the financial enslavement of the culture I was born into, and took place in offices under fluorescent lights. They burned. And so did I.
I have been happily and peacefully running my successful spiritual consulting company for several years, with nothing but kindness and appreciation coming from my audience, clients and sphere of influence. Until I started talking about it.
Yes, until I actually started stepping into the leadership role I was made for, everybody loved me. There were very few haters. There was very little conflict around my work. But because I have stepped forward to set an example for the women who are in a position like I was five years ago, for the girl inside of her who doesn't understand what's "wrong," and why she deserves poverty, who I was ten years ago, I have ruffled a few feathers.
And I'm not sorry. I'm not even sorry that I'm not sorry. Standing in my mastery is the only right action for me. Declaring the value of my spent life's blood, is the only truth I must express. This is decreed by my greater self, who sees legions of actively embodied healers working for the world, without the disturbances of poverty, worry and lack distorting their work, and chemically changing the delivery of their medicines.
You can't save the world. You will not be able to answer every need or address all suffering, no matter how you choose to survive. But if you want to thrive you have to stop devaluing the body of work your lifetime has produced. You just have to because whether you charge for it or not, you are lying to yourself and disrespecting your own holy path by pretending it has no value. Self-diminishment is a distortion-tactic, that keeps you small and prevents your actualization.
Not everyone is your client. Not everyone can afford your time and presence and work. Villlainizing those who do good work for money while applauding those who mass-produce products on factory lines is worse than hypocritical. It is an attack on the presence of the very persons who have given their lives to becoming the answer to a need more aching than the products some people give their lives doing the paperwork for. It seems that these people feel they may earn their livings by using their skills, no matter how common or mundane, but would deny a living to those who build one around their passions, purpose and most joyous right work.
This is not an Us vs. Them argument. There is no "them." There is the projection of a shadow mark left upon our light-drizzled minds. We must stand in the value of our devoted service; we must not seek permission from any externat entity to do so. And because we do that, we get the chance at living a life with greater fulfillment, passion, purpose and wildness. And doing the work that makes you love your life is certainly nothing to feel guilty about.
Let go of your guilt, healer, so there is space to activate the glorious rippling blessings that must be emptied into the world before you leave for home.